By Yune Jee Bang '24
April 13, 2022
does it make you feel powerful
when you say, “i don’t care”?
from the Lord i have
love on tap,
maybe your reservoir
requires conservation. i get
you are a survivalist, you plan ahead,
you ration. you have no understanding
of infinity, your god is your universe. where gases gravitate
and burn and return over human eternity. where everything is diluted
until the end. but even if we suns
die eventually, don’t we serve as omnipotent
enough for now? still you spurn my affection with shades
drawn. the sun never sets on you.
fine. i agree i am inadequate. omnipresent
enough for now but light does not transmit
where it is not wanted. power, love;
absence, feigned indifference. i don’t think anything
good is generated from that cold. not that solar power
is sustainable. light and heat dissipate, i know.
created things are transient
but still we provide; we imitate our Creator.
not enough for you. i know. you know
how i am hurt, imagine how He feels. just because i can’t love you forever
don’t deny yourself my God. you say
i can’t understand, you think i just have
energy. from where though. do you see?
what i am trying to tell you? i am not
what you need. i know. but, i love you.
not enough, but enough to wish
you could care to ask
Illustration by Eunae Koh '23